You know, I’ve been thinking. Everything is… just comes together. It’s me. I chose this. I chose all this. This rock… this rock has been waiting for me my entire life. It’s entire life, ever since it was a bit of meteorite a million, billion years ago. In space. It’s been waiting, to come here. Right, right here. I’ve been moving towards it my entire life. The minute I was born, every breath that I’ve taken, every action has been leading me to this crack on the out surface.
Good morning, everyone! It’s 6:45 Tuesday morning in BJ Canyon! The weather is great. I figure by now that Leona, my housemate – Hi, Leona! – has missed me hopefully since I didn’t show up last night. Another hour and a half they’ll miss me for not showing up at work… Hi, Brion at work! Best case scenario is they notify the police and after a 24 hour hold they file a report, a missing person’s report. Which means noon tomorrow it’s official that I’m gone. I do still have the tiniest bit of water left. Well, actually, I’ve resorted… I’ve had a couple pretty good gulps of urine that I saved in my Camelbak. I sort of let it distill… It tastes like hell. So, it’s 70 hours since I left on my bike from Horseshoe Trailhead during which time I have consumed 3 liters of water, a couple of mouthfuls of piss… Did I say the weather is great? Well, it is. Though flash floods potential is still present. There’s four-prong major canyons upstream from me that all converge in this 3 foot wide gap where I am. The rock I pulled down on top of me, it was put there by flood. Still, I’d get a drink.
Mom, Dad, I really love you guys. I wanted to take this time to say the times we’ve spent together have been awesome. I haven’t appreciated you in my own the way I know I could. Mom, I love you. I wish I’d returned all of your calls, ever. I really have lived this last year. I wish I had learned some lessons more astutely, more rapidly, than I did. I love you. I’ll always be with you.
